There is another side…

Monday, May 21, 2007

Filed under: Rambles at 12:55 am

I think we take for granted that people are who they say they are online. We often forget the anonymity of the internet. I was sitting around, just thinking tonight. And I realized… I try to be incredibly open on my site about who I am and what I do, but when you get down to it there is a great deal of things that would surprise (perhaps even drive away) many of you upon finding out.

Seriously, if you think I’m vulgar on my website then you should have an actual conversation with me. (Ask Elyse, she knows.) I try to keep it as PG-13 on here as I possibly can given my characteristics, but you can only do so much.

Not to mention I drop racial slurs like it’s going out of style and quick. I’m also incredibly violent, cynical, bitter, generally angry, and an all around loner.

I really don’t like people and wish that most of them would just kill themselves or get hit by a bus. I can’t stand to be out in public for more than a hour or so at a time and when I am out longer I get incredibly bitchy.

I’m disgusted by old people and laugh at retarded kids. Yeah, I know it’s wrong, but that’s who I am and I accept that. Don’t get me wrong, I feel bad for them, but I still find old people gross (excluding my grandparents) and retarded kids are funny 99.9% of the time. You know you want to snicker, deep down inside of you, you know.

As for general hobbies, I probably do things that the majority of you would never ever guess I’d do.

My point being, you never really know who you’re talking to on here. You get slight glimpses into other people’s lives, but it really doesn’t mean anything to you without the rest of the pieces. You’ll probably never get the whole picture from most people either. Some things are just better kept in the closet.

10 Comments »

Comment by Chrissy

May 21, 2007 @ 3:07 pm

Man, you sound like someone I wanna talk to. Boy howdy.

Some things don’t have to be kept in the closet. Think of how many new, exciting friends you’ll find when you let the REAL skeletons out. ;)

Comment by Jean

May 21, 2007 @ 9:19 pm

You sound just like a friend of mine. She’d laugh at people, feel bad for them but would do the same thing over again. Haha.

But agree with what you just said.. there is another side to everyone when they’re online. It’s just that people won’t find out about it unless they know the person offline too.

Comment by Ragnhild

May 22, 2007 @ 3:47 am

I think that sometimes the anonymity of the internet can be a good thing, because you can escape the prejudices that people get when they see you or the opinions they have of you through other people. However, people shouldn’t use this anonymity to manipulate or give a totally wrong image of who they are, although I agree that some things may not be appropriate for shouting out loud, but that goes for real life as well.

Comment by Ang

May 22, 2007 @ 6:39 am

I kinda like the anonymity, in a way. It’s probably the only way that I feel comfortable getting to know someone. Most people don’t know this, but when I socialize in real life, I get very uncomfortable and flustered and pretty much feel like a goof. But over the internet, I can read everything I type over and get comfortable with people before really letting them know my insecurities. It’s much easier that way, I think.

Comment by Elyse

May 22, 2007 @ 1:06 pm

You know, when we first started talking on the phone, we really did learn things about each other that we never knew. I learned everything you just mentioned (and I’m 100% cool with it all… but I’m not killing myself, thank you very much). You learned how insecure I was. Then I started meds and you learned how not insecure I was. Then I forgot to take my meds and you learned how insecure I was again. LOL!

My point, if you can call it that, is that I love you. And you better love me, or else.

Comment by Casey

May 22, 2007 @ 1:24 pm

I agree about old people. I find all of them gross as well. I cant stand them… its mean yeah but they either cant see well or cant hear well or walk well and then their kids have to take care of them… *shudders* You make a great point though and this will leave me curious about people I talk to on the net haha.

Comment by Christina

May 22, 2007 @ 6:55 pm

I’m pretty much the same way. I make fun of virtually everyone and it’s usually based off of things they have little or no control over. If it weren’t for you being an entire two days older than me, I’d say we were twins separated at birth.

Comment by Lissi

May 23, 2007 @ 2:31 am

You and I have a lot in common. A lot of people think that I’m this sweet, bubbly, nice chick but that’s only to people I really know and somehow, that became my online personality. The truth is that I’m an angry, bitter, cynical, sarcastic bitch. Most would say it’s a defense mechanism. It’s not. It’s me. I sort of take on the personalities of people that I hang out with, and most are bubbly and happy like Irene for eample =) I have to agree with the whole disliking people and wishing that they’d off themselves. I have thoughts like that 100x a day =)

Comment by Katie

May 23, 2007 @ 3:17 am

I’d say everything you said just there is true. While I try to be honest I still leave a lot of stuff out, and sometimes people don’t get the full picture.

And the retarded kids thing - I’ve been guilty of that sometimes. Its a terrible thing to admit, but true. People these days are just too scared to be truthfull, lest they tread upon anyones toes.

Hi five for your honesty. =]

Comment by Laura

May 23, 2007 @ 11:55 am

To be completely honest I have to admit that some parts of your post completely disgusted me. But then I realized that you were only telling the truth, which is always better than little white lies. And you’re right, your online personality can be completely different from your real life one. But I think that your online personality defines you better, in real life we’re always so cautious of what we do and say. But online, who the f*ck cares? You’re more free to be yourself… the boundries of real life just aren’t there anymore. Sorry for my insanly long comment. But you made a good post, and you’re right.

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